We Grew Into the Roads......

I am so happy for all of my friends, I am excited to see them move on to exciting new adventures and whatever comes next, but watching them leave Chapel Hill one by one SUCKS. 

In the last two years, even though they started as Ryan’s friend, I have made them my own. I love Selena, for her friendship and the different mood she brings. Dalton will always be that person who was there for me after Nate died, and willing to listen to the most weepy texts. Matt has just been the chill voice in the room, whose put up with Ryan’s somewhat amusing antics. Jamie is the voice of obscure passions, like beer, Michael Jackson and cigars. John will always be my favorite. Even those like Imani, Katie, Emily and Scott that I really got to know this year, they have all added so much to my college experience and I am sad to experience Chapel Hill without them.

Then, as I see them all getting jobs or internships when it looked like hope was lost, I know Ryan is next. His pessimism aside, I know that God has something stored for him. He has made him wait to show that ultimately, God is in control, not Ryan, but he will provide. He will provide even more than we can ask, or even imagine. I want this all for Ryan, but I think hardest of all will be to be here without him.

I do not know Carolina without him. I am excited to try something new, but Ryan is my rock and my best friend. I cannot imagine having to spend a year, or more, seeing him only a few days a month.

Ugh I know change has to happen, but honestly goodbyes SUCK. I wish everyone the best, and I cannot wait to see how God uses them, but couldn’t everyone just get held back another year? Please? 

Obsessing Over: How proud I am of Ryan for graduating! I cannot wait to see where God leads him next. 

Working On: Nothing! It’s summer!! 

Thinking About: Heading to work and managing the migraine as well as getting more business intros today. 

Anticipating: My lumbar puncture on Wednesday! Ready to end this 65 day migraine! 

Listening To: Army Wives, not ashamed! Makes me think of my bestie Lauren! 

Drinking: Coffee, as per the usual. 

Wishing: I didn’t have to work and could just hang out with Ryan again today.