“God speaks in the language you know best — not through your ears, but through your circumstances. God has to destroy our determined confidence in our own convictions. We say, “I know that this is what I should do” - and suddenly the voice of God speaks in a way that overwhelms us by revealing the depths of our ignorance.”—Oswald Chambers (via insteadofashow)
But I seriously want to call the cops on my neighbors. I’m having a really shit grieving day and if I feel their bass shake my walls one more second, I may go spastic on them. I’m in college, should be at the bars rights now, but instead I’m crocheting and hitting the wall with a broom. Way to young for this shit.
I feel like a silver of the person I used to be. I am full of bitterness and angry after Nate’s death and I am taking it out on the only person who has been there for me through out. I cry without reason because I’m scared, I cry because I am sad, I cried not because something is wrong but something could be wrong.
I don’t know how to fix this but my pastor may be right, it is harder to be angry alone then in community. I’m scared of God, of what more he can do to me or my family, but I also miss my relationship with him. This seed of anger that I worked so carefully to make sure was not directed at Islam but it became anger and bitterness at God. I need to just accept that there is sin in the world and slowly become more like Ruth and less like Naomi.
“Don’t ever get stuck in the past when God’s leading you into the future. Don’t ever think that somethings so great that you can’t let go of it and let God give you something else.”—Louie Giglio (via amandacelesteee)
“But the great thing to remember is that, though our feelings come and go, His love for us does not. It is not wearied by our sins, or our indifference; and, therefore, it is quite relentless in its determination that we shall be cured of those sins, at whatever cost to us, at whatever cost to Him.”—C.S. Lewis (via tmbaffinity)
Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.